VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
January 1

New Years Prayer

Thank you Lord for giving me
The brand new year ahead
Help me live the way I should
As each new day I tread.

Give me gentle wisdom
That I might help a friend
Give me strength and courage
So a shoulder I might lend.

The year ahead is empty
Help me fill it with good things
Each new day filled with joy
And the happiness it brings.

Please give the leaders of our world
A courage born of peace
That they might lead us gently
And all the fighting cease.

Please give to all upon this earth
A heart that's filled with love
A gentle happy way to live
With Your blessings from above.

~ Charlotte Anselmo ~

little white house
Home is Where the Heart Is
An orginal Pixel by B. J. Carper


Another year begins and with it some Resolutions of items I want to improve on in the year 2006.

  1. Eat Better
  2. Exercise at least 1/2 hour a day
  3. write every day rather it is something stupid or only a line or two
  4. to build some friendships
  5. to not miss a day of work for the year
  6. to pray every day
  7. to sing something every day
  8. to laugh more and cry less
  9. to maintain my websites a bit better
  10. to learn something no matter how small each day

I think that should do it. I'm going to force myself to keep my thoughts better this year, as well as my Daily items on my Love and Stuff website as well.


"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on."
– Franklin Delano Roosevelt


Resolutions for this year.
I'm going to move forward
I'm going to be more daring
I'm going to be happy
I'm going to live for today
I'm going to love each day for the day
I'm going to try.


in my mailbox today the Elder's Meditation of the Day. Quite Ironic in it's wording, something that may make some think. and give me hope

".because if you believe in something, and believe in it long enough, it will come into being."
- Rolling Thunder, CHEROKEE -


a day spent working on getting my thoughts copied to this format from their previous one of individual pages, I believe I have 905 of them done now, and just have to find the mistakes I made. Kind of a lonely wasted day.


The new year came to me in the presence of my dearest friends, Friends of only the past year, a year that brought many new things and saw the death of my past life. With this thought in mind I was very reflective of the changes and of the HOPE this year may bring to my life. It is a time to finally let go of the past and to look to the future, to let go of the sadness that has plagued me for so many years and to learn what happiness once again feels like. A new year to explore my inner self, to grow and to become the person I have always been without restrictions, without fear, without the feelings of hopelessness I have had in the past. I have set this year as a year of reflections, of growth and finally of Hope, Love and Joys.

As many do on New Year's day I have made a few resolutions, nothing major or nothing I can not live with, like learning to discover who I really am. To accept myself as that person, to allow that person to grow and to bloom into the creature God has always intended me to be. To stop trying to change things I know I no longer can change, to be more accepting of the way life is. To always tell the ones I Love that I do Love them, and the reasons why. To always do my best, no matter what is put in front of me. To trust my inner voice. and I think maybe the two most important ones, anyhow to me. Is to write, and write often, whatever comes to my mind, to express myself no matter the mood of the day, no matter the feelings involved, but to just write. the second most important one is to count my blessings every day, no matter how big or small but to see them all as God intended me to see them and to enjoy them.

I will close now with One of the biggest blessings I have received today. Two people who have become my family, The Pope and His Pretty Lady, both have given me so much by giving of themselves in entirely different ways, I am very thankful that they are in my life, they make it a better place for me to be. I am certain that the Pope understands my Love for Him, but the Pretty Lady doesn't quite understand my Love for her yet, but she will, it is as having a sister, a sister of the heart. I Love them both.


The first day of a new year, a new decade a new century, and I was stuck at work when the clock struck midnight. I tried to call home but no answer, was he with her again tonight?


With the new year being here, many things are reflected from the past days of my life, not just deeds, or words, but emotions and feelings. They are something that is often felt the deepest but are also the most intangible of all things within our life. We know we feel pain, we feel hurt and we feel love, but yet we can not hold it in our hands, we may do an inner examination of these feelings but we just cannot see them with our eyes.

I believe the new Year offers so much hope that the darkness will lift from my heart, and that I will find the joy and the laughter I have been searching for, for so long. This will be a year of change, rather the change be good or bad that is yet to be seen.

Something that amazes me, is the inability to give up hope. It seems like through all the darkness that light is still always sharing and I just keep reaching for it. I feel it at my fingertips. It may be mine.

I received an e-mail last night from someone dear and special to me, someone I have come to love in a way I can't explain, or even dare try to. but his words touched my heart and brought me hope that tomorrow may be the conclusion to my searching for that light. I feel my heart beat once again, I feel the walls falling down. Maybe it is finally time to share again.

Days revolve through our lives
Like pages turn in a book
We can not know what tomorrow brings
Until we turn that feeling inside of us
Why have you been brought to me?
Why should I question that?
I have seen someone so beautiful
She has given her heart to me
A chance that alerts caution
But a feeling that delivers a treasure
I feel that I cannot live with out you
You make my heart a home
There is a great fondness
And a friendship that is comprehensible
Your reflection I will cherish
For to me your soul. I will hold dear
You have given me tenderness and warmth
That feeling I will ingather
I know I will love you dearly
Because you are so honest
My heart has told me that now
Is the time to share this feeling?


So many prospects for the New Year
So many possibilities

Happiness is to come
Joy for Tomorrow

What will it be
When will it happen?


Happy New Year!