VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
January 12

"Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
-Matthew 5:16-

"Great hopes make great men."
-Thomas Fuller-

2006

so sickkkkkkk

2005

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

2004

when the hawk takes flight
what a beautiful sight
upon it's perch
for food it does search
a special blessing to be seen
so beautiful and keen

2003

they say that at any place in time that at least one person is thinking of you. that one person loves you, and that one person is waiting for something different to make life seem worthwhile. but that is what they say for me I don't believe it.

2002

I wished I could ease the fatigue
I wished I could sooth the aches
I wished I could remove all the pain this world has
I wished I could take away the past hurts
and replace it all with love and kindness

2001

Just another day, with my thoughts on the past instead of the future.

2000

I wished it were not to late for him to see that I really do love him, that it is only him that I see, but I fear that no matter what he will never understand this, and that no matter who loves him it shall never be enough.

1999

Where does the madness reign within individuals that think they must always be better than others? Does the drive to be better push them to the edge, to believe their own lies with such a conviction that they make a total fool of themselves?

What is their purpose in slandering the one who by hard work and chance did a little better than them. Somewhere there is a point when the mind of the deranged snaps, and they have failed in their conquest for perfection, recognition, and self imported importance.

When jealousy over some insignificant thing can drive them to a point of vengeance. Where is the mind at this point. When they have become so obsessed with success that they forget who they are or what their actual role is. Where the lies continue to grow building a trap they can never out live. When they face their maker what will they do then. For Lies won't work.

I pity them

1998

I've been thinking a lot lately about relationships and what the affects are of them. How many times have you thought yourself in love, but to find out it wasn't love but infatuation, or lust, or some unknown element?

I think we all know the feeling, but where is the feeling, is it in our heart? In our mind? In our soul? How do we determine this and at what level it is felt? How does it become implanted there?

We can become attracted by several elements, each playing on a different emotion. It fills a need within us. This need is created by our shaping through childhood I believe. Although I don't think that is all there is to the shaping. Some must be born into us to.

We select others to share our lives with on several basis. Looks personality, social status (unfortunately) voice tone. likes and dislikes. Imagine, that we all looked exactly the same. We all made exactly the same amount of money. We all lived in exactly the same houses and drove the same cars.

How would we determine what would attract us to another then?

My thought to ponder today

1997

Nothing is stronger than habit.
- Ovid -