VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
January 13

"Wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart. Wait, I say on the Lord."
-Psalms 27:14-

"One cannot collect all the beautiful shells on the beach. One can collect only a few, and they are more beautiful if they are few."
-Anne Morrow Lindbergh-


Still fighting the flu, it seems like it just doesn't want to go away.


"Climb up on some hill at sunrise. Everybody needs perspective once in a while, and you’ll find it there."
-Robb Sagendorph-


My head is pounding so bad
someday this pain must stop
the migraines seem to be getting worse instead of better


as the thought of touch renders it's presence to my mind, the feeling evoked is so unkind, when the cold chills the bone and no one is there to add warmth, all seems gone and life is walked through in a giant void


I was happy today
Because you spoke to me

I feel peace within
Because I know your with me


I find myself dwelling in the past and how life was
I think it's time that I establish my own person
and define who I am and where I am headed


There are some defeats more triumphant than victories.
- Michel de Montaigne -


Sweetest surrender, given in trust
the mind the body and the soul
Sometimes it is a must
it's what makes us whole

The joy of knowing you belong completely
with every beat of your heart
The gift given so sweetly
it makes you wonder who is so smart

Sleet and snow
blow wind blow
makes noses glow
and cars go slow


I looked back through my pages today,
hindsight is often good
it gives us a direction to go
as has these pages, I believe
a reflection of the past
something to never be recaptured again
A remembrance to days gone by.
Now I have those days if only for a brief few moments in words
they are here for me to recall
to watch how I have changed, how I have grown
To find a cycle perhaps of my moods and feelings.
An introspection of oneself is always good
If done with an open, honest mind
it can unlock doors for some and add locks to others
it can shape and mold us.
But if done with a truly honest heart it can make us a better person.
Life is too short to destroy our happiness by not being honest within ourselves
It is not some game to be played
The stakes are to high
and for those of us our lives touch
We must think of them
Although I know I have hurt others, with my careless words, or unknown actions, I wished I had not.
I never took the time to think how it would affect them, only of my selfish self, and for this I truly am sorry.

What have I discovered over the past few weeks? I have a thing for the morning sunrises. The colors red and gray. A deep and troubled soul, a mass of confusion. But I see through my words that the light is coming closer and that the confusion won't always be there, it may return from time to time, but it will not stay.


Don't let us make imaginary evils, when you know we have so many real ones to encounter.
- Oliver Goldsmith -