VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
January 23

German Bear
Mouse drawn by B. J. Carper

"You have two hands. One to help yourself, the second to help others."


"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself."
- Harvey Fierstein -


Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.


upon the journey into self
the path burdened with thoughts upon the shelf
emotions explored, feelings felt
sadness and joy have been dealt
inspiration inspires
fulfills all desires


as the view inside screams for attention the pain beats on
the darkness so intense that light blinds and burns
silence so deep that not even a whisper can be heard


Sleep that is all I have done besides cough
Sleep, a restless sleep


in the cold I saw my breath and knew I was alive


I'm beginning to settle in a bit
Getting used to the change
the difference the emptiness, the silence


Cold and dreary the picture paints
raindrops, shrouded in a mist of fog
The ground lays frozen, unable to accept
puddles spread beyond their bounds

Winter rages on, making a show it still exists
No matter how hard it fights I know from within it's Mists
a Garden of spring, newness, and awakening will surly persist


Today no deep thoughts playing catch up has worn me out. *laughing*

I didn't realize how hard it would be to catch up after only being gone a few days. There were so many emotions swirling through my head, so many beautiful things seen, shared, and carried away with me.

I know that through my writings my trip has remained a secret and so it must, but It helped me find some happiness and some sunshine in my world which had grown dark.

Things I saw that I felt as blessings, and things I'm sure I shall never see again, others I hope to see again. If you hadn't guessed, seeing the falcon swoop down from his perch touched me the most, but also a field of Wild turkeys. two deer at owl. a child. trees different than my own. and the clearest blue.


The follies which a man regrets most, in his life, are those which he didn't commit when he had the opportunity.
- Helen Rowland -