VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
February 3

"O LORD, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit."
- Psalm 30:3 -

"The greatest discovery of my generation is that man can alter his life simply by altering his attitude of mind."
- William James -


The movies were just a small part of the true blessing of the evening, that being the sharing of family.


Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.
Storm Jameson


Sometimes the silence speaks so loud a person wants to run from it but yet there is nowhere to run, at these times you turn your thoughts inward, you explore those hidden emotions deep inside, the issues you outwardly feel that have been resolved, but deep in this exploration you find that they are not just buried deep.


the fog a representation of my future so dense that even tomorrow is beyond sight. The winds howling a reflection of my inner thoughts, being torn and beat among the conflict that rages inside. The coldness and darkness of the night the truth of my life.


today was mom's wedding anniversary, 28 years, I once had thought I would celebrate such a milestone, but now I know that shall never be. I sometimes wonder where in life things became so mixed up, so alien, so different than my ideology of my youth. Is that how life is supposed to be. I know of those who live on a ten year plan, heck I can't even live on a day to day plan.


Well tomorrow is the day, hopefully
If the carpet gets laid
and the furniture gets moved
and then I will finally be on my own
the first time in my adult life that I have lived totally alone
can I do it?


I find all I do is cry, and cry and cry.


Looking into the mirror
hands slowly stroking my body
My eyes drift close
as I imagine you here
Bringing forth a passions
so deeply hidden
A soft smile comes to my lips
and the dream fades


See the light
it surrounds me, filling me
with wonder and joy

See the shadow
it hides me, cloaking me
in doubt and pain

See the night
it transforms me, changing me
from who to whom

See the dawn
it awakes me, enlightens me
on the past and the future


Man is the only animal that blushes. Or needs to.
- Mark Twain -