VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
February 7

"Angels at the foot.
And angels at the head,
And like a curly little lamb,
My pretty babe in bed."
- Christina Rossetti -

"Begin to free yourself at once by doing all that is possible with the
means you have, and as you proceed in this spirit the way will open for
you to do more."
- Robert Collier, Writer and Publisher -


dang I'm tired, I have to question the tiredness, is it really fatigue or is it depression setting in again, that I can't allow to happen. So I must push myself harder so that I sleep when I'm needing it, and not sleeping just because there is nothing better to do.


"We arrive at the truth, not by the reason only, but also by the heart."
- Blaise Pascal -


what is love
is it this ache I feel knowing it will never be mine?


sometimes I wished I was other than I am, for if I were then maybe someone would love me. maybe I would be able to know the truth and feel the feelings others feel, have a life like others. but as I still search for my flaws, I also search for someone to love me as me.


Not much to say today, just not feeling well enough to think


I'm scared and excited both, this place is going to be hard, not sure I can afford it but I'm going to do the best I can, and if I fall on my face, well I've done that before, and believe that there is no way I will again.


I was 18 he 25, he made me feel needed, now I know I was used.


The years have pasted
yesterday's mistakes cannot be corrected
I ask have I done right
Can I be forgiven


A Saturday morning.
cartoons in the morning
Daddy hollering, hit the deck
and moaning because it was sleeping day

Saturday Afternoon
French Toast and cod fish gravy
Visiting Grandma
It was shopping day

Saturday Evening
Walt Disney on the tube
Little brother hollering, don't let the bedbugs bite
It was sleeping time


Call no man foe, but never love a stranger.
- Stella Benson -