VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
February 17

"We must live as we think, otherwise we shall end up by thinking as we have lived."
- Paul Bourget -

There's a land where I go when I need to share
that's not on a map yet exists everywhere
A land of names without faces a curious place
A modern creation that's called cyberspace

There's all sorts of people with cute little names
Like Pookie and Sandman and Rosebud and Flames
Some are just snobs and some are real fun
and some of them just want to find someone

But both good and bad they all play a role
Still each one is unique but part of the whole
We talk and laugh and wonder why
we flirt and hug and sometimes cry

We can't be heard and can't be seen
Yet there it is right on our screen
But all in all the most curious part
Is the power it has to open our heart

To share with a stranger those things we've concealed
Which to our closest of friends we'd never reveal
Our deepest regrets and most troubling fears
The scars in our life which bring us to tears

What gives them the power to reach into me
and show me the truths that I never see
How do they manage to open my eyes
and make me confess the deceits and the lies
I don't understand this magical spell

But I know without it
my life would be "hell"
This must have been planned by the Creator up above
Cause there's no place on Earth where you'll find as much love

When I need direction I know I can find
those Angels from Heaven just waiting online

~ Author Unknown ~


I need to learn how to feel again, how to open up and express myself with the truth of my heart. I know you come here and so it makes it so hard to really write what I am feeling, how badly I miss you and how many times I think of you. I tired to pretend that It was nothing more than what the agreement was in the beginning, but the truth is you took me away when you left that day with the promise to see me again, when you said it was not good-bye, when you said I would see you again. What a fool I am, for I still believe, I still believe those words even though it was years ago. I still believe, I've always believed in you. Did you speak the truth that day or did you begin your lying to me that day?


"It is by attempting to reach the top at a single leap that so much misery is caused in the world."
- William Cobbett -


sometimes I wished I could find the music that swims in my head, the words, and the tune but like the wind they are gone


sometimes I allow myself to escape reality and take the leap into make believe, generally late at night in the dark, in my lonely bed, I pretend there is someone there, someone to listen to me, someone to talk to me, someone to take away my fears, someone to hold me, someone to give warmth, someone who knows my heart, someone who accepts me as me, someone who doesn't look for the answers but knows them deep down. Yeah sometimes I pretend, but the funny thing is I never communicate with this someone vocally, but in the silence of the night I know that somewhere there is someone jumping into that realm of fantasy and make believe with me.


lingering wisps of whimsy
longing whispers of wishes
lasting was upon the winds


There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.
- Josh Billings -


Learn to see in another's calamity the ills which you should avoid.
- Publilius Syrus -


.....his touch did come

a whispered touch
a grazing of the skin
.....his touch did come

fairy tales
.....when his touch did come


Life has found a sort of normal stride. With no modem, it has been work sleep and sleep some more. Although I know it's only temporary I worry about how I have let those down that have depended on me. I dislike things that are beyond my control. It feels as if life has pretty much always been that way for me. Never a routine, everything just thrown into the pot and what comes out is anyone's guess


The more I want to get something done, the less I call it work.
- Richard Bach -