VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
March 26

If in your search for happiness
while traveling day to day
If you should meet with heartache
or hurt along the way
If in your quest a friend you need
someone to share your pain
Remember me, I'm always here
A friend who will remain

"Words can't break a bone but they can break a heart"


"To change one's life: 1. Start immediately. 2. Do it flamboyantly. 3. No exceptions."
- William James -


"Do not ask the Lord to guide your footsteps, if you are not willing to move your feet."
- Anonymous -


got me a new toy today, but yet the satisfaction isn't there, it's just another thing, and things mean nothing, things can be bought, trashed, discarded, but people who are the real treasures in life, can only allow you to have what they want to give, and sometimes sadly enough it doesn't seem enough


the headache is back today, the pain severe and intense, as though it could explode and no one would know or care that it has and I am no longer here.


Sometimes I wished the sun would shine on me more than it has


I'm so so lost, it is like death, my death, my re birth in a foreign and hostile world of total emptiness, no nothing at all in my possession, no longer life as I know it, learning to crawl all over again.


I wished somehow I could put the past behind me and forget all that I have known to this point in my life. I wished I could undo the learning's and begin a new. I wished I could see the beauty in the day and forget all the pain.


Have you said thank you today?

I thought it was time that I did so, to so many of those I have met here, Wonderful people I have only met through words. The Paris Community Leaders, my special group of co-workers that are so giving and caring. Many of the GeoCities other volunteers in other neighborhoods, Liaisons and Community Leaders alike special friends like Chard, Ben, Dazzle, and Tweetiebird, My Net-sisters who have truly became my sisters, Sisters Titainia and Santena,

And then some of the wonderful Homesteaders I have helped in the beginning, Marcel, Robbie, Lilann, and Maria who have always kept me in their thoughts.

Even if I shall never meet you face to face it's important that they all know how much they mean to me, and how blessed I feel to have known their friendship, even if it is through this computer screen.

I wished I had the time to name everyone individually, to say how much you mean to me and what special things you have granted me with just by knowing you. Thank you my friends


spinning in a lost abyss
anger swims and swirls within the soul
clenched fists
the temper flares
the battle comes from within
it's time to stop it all
it's not fair
and needs to be changed
circles that's all it ever is
spinning never ending
just continuing.


Be wiser than other people, if you can, but do not tell them so.
- Lord Chesterfield -