VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
April 5

"Never mistake knowledge for wisdom. One helps you make a living, the other helps you make a life."
- Sandra Carey -


another year has passed and tomorrow will begin a new year in my life. Looking backward at what this past year has brought me, I find that nothing real newsworthy happened, the days passed into months and soon it was now, and all those minutes and hours of my life were wasted.


"How many observe Christ's birthday! How few, his precepts! O! 'tis easier to keep Holidays than Commandments."
- Benjamin Franklin -


I figure it's been about two years now since my sunshine left, the last words were? does the sun recall? was it the truth, the lie or the hope that it was the first and not the latter that causes the memories, the love, and the hope that someday may come sometime.


spending the day cleaning, something I have neglected so bad since he stopped coming to see me, something that doesn't matter, no reason to do it when there is no one to do it for. but with force and will I've accomplished most of it, and I'll be now ready to leave for the week and not worry about coming back home to the mess. I hope and pray that this trip will rest me, remove the burn out, remove the tears, remove the helpless, worthless feelings I have. a refreshing of the soul maybe. Maybe the sun rising over the ocean, and the waves sounding upon the shore will clean my mind that seems so cluttered and bogged down with just the aspect of living.


another little guy, a gift of a rock, and the sweetness and innocence only a child can bring to ones day. Pizza and Teletubbies, Stuffed bears and matchbox cars. Peaceful slumber


I wonder where I will be at next year at this time


Another year completed in my life and I must say it has been the worse ever, I hope and pray that the next one is better


Thoughts on Poetry
from a Sweet Talking Friend

They come with strong emotion...A heavy saddened heart does create a gifted hand. Passion lends formable words to anyone's vocabulary. Joy will write many songs. But sometimes love is silent.

Well described
In my Mind's eye
Emotion must be present
For the words to have dimension

Without shape form is no good
Without Heart no feelings
Ramblings unclear
Is all that is spoken


Today, the last day
of this year in my life,
I find it time once again to make
Some New Years resolutions.

My Goal for my 36th year are,
To find peace within myself
Learn to love me first
Find my lost soul
and to find happiness once again

Traveling to the edge
pushing further
growing inside, shrinking on the out
expanding the perception of life
gaining knowledge and wisdom

The turmoil roils in my gut
pain shoot through my heart
struggling with what is
wanting different, craving the unknown
holding on to the known

Struggling to overcome
slipping back.
Close your eyes and jump
it's the only way
the fear will leave, once it's done.


Liars when they speak the truth are not believed.
- Aristotle -