VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
April 13

"In time of trouble...He shall set me upon a rock."
- Psalms 27:5 -

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory."
- Betty Smith 1896-1972, Novelist -


"What is harder than rock, or softer than water? Yet soft water hollows out hard rock. Persevere."
- Louis "Satchmo" Armstrong -


"Think like a man of action, act like a man of thought."
- Henri-Louis Bergson -


Anger, for nothing, no reason but rage filled and exploded, ran away and submerged itself deep with in the heart of my soul. I screamed I cried, I wished, I tried, the anger took control, the words did their toll, and now we will see what becomes of what was this day.


I think jet lag has caught up to me this day, although I slept well I found that getting up was a difficult task and managed to sleep till noon. oh lazy me.


a sort of sadness encompasses me tonight. I sense the end far deeper than I have before, for in being possessed I would lose myself, and I have worked so hard to know myself, to find myself and to be myself to ever give that up again.

I have always said that I'm a selfish person, and so I must be again, for if I do not take care of myself, who will? I am the only one that I can trust, and if I fail then I can only blame myself, and I will not be confused by whose mistake it was, or whose forgiveness I need to receive.

what happens when the time comes that I can no longer accept being second, what happens when I realize that is all I shall ever be, what happens when the time finally comes for the final choice to be made?


Glory is fleeting, but obscurity is forever.
- Napoleon Bonaparte -


Dreams, tormented by memories no more come
silence and peace is mine
for life is so short
dwelling in the past is such a waste.
Now time is spent of dreaming of the future,
selecting and dissecting all the opportunities, the choices and the freedom, freedom I had forgotten existed for so many. Myself included. Yes happiness is mine if only I reach out my hand and accept it.


When night falls and the darkness beats out the light.
Do we rest or Fight?


I'm so tired
both mentally and physically
life should not be a struggle
answers should not be so hard to come by

Beating my head against the brick wall
tearing my heart apart
so much pain in trying
answers are there not any

I'm so tired
I can do no more
my faith has slipped
my hope gone......


The reverse side also has a reverse side.
- Japanese Proverb -