VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
June 26

Sweetie Pop leaning on her hands at a desk
Sweetie Pop mouse drawn by B. J. Carper from tutorials at Angelic Designs


I'm trying to find my inner voice again, it seems as thought I have stifled it for way to long and now I have forgotten who I am, I have forgotten how to feel, I have forgotten how to laugh and how to cry, I have forgotten how to live. I need to learn to scream more. To be silly every now and then, and most of all I need to find my spirit once more. It's not an easy task to do, especially when one recalls when last they felt alive, and the memories assail you until, you realize how deep the void is within you.


"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you will help them become what they are capable of becoming."
- Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe -


to the one who know the last line, do you remember it, do you know it will always be the last line, it is what I feel inside, what I have fought so hard for all this time to deny but yet I still believe deep inside that the last line is how I feel, do you?




It is impossible to defeat an ignorant man in argument.
- William G. McAdoo -


It's too hot to think


I want a purpose, not just an existence
I want to love
I want to cry
and I want it all to be all right
no matter what I do
I ask for me and only of me
no one else but me
I ask myself to stop all the madness
I ask for God to heal my heart, my soul, my spirit
I ask that I be made one onto myself
once again.


First there was me geo then me yahoo which was two,
now there is only one, Oh what fun


Hurt and anger
the feelings of being used
no care for the person
only what they can do
no longer pastime
but a number
The system swallows another
and you disappear
just part of the whole
with nothing more than a use


The only interesting answers are those which destroy the questions.
- Susan Sontag -