VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
June 29

"Man's mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions."
– Oliver Wendell Holmes Jr. -


Some days I really don't give a damn! Today however was not one of them.


"What is important is to keep learning, to enjoy challenge, and to tolerate ambiguity. In the end there are no certain answers."
– Matina Horner -


Sometimes when I can't sleep at night I relive the sweet memories we made together in that brief moment of space where you were a part of my life and dreams were something I had.


only 5 more days
only 6 more nights
only 7 more things left
only 1 more me


hot the day was hot
spent with family
listening to the roar
cheering and shouting
seeing the smiles
was a good day


thoughts are somewhere else today


Life has been sort of lost within a drug hazed mist I fear, not of illegal substances, but ones prescribed, ones to make the mind numb, to not allow the expression of thoughts, to calm the anger, to reduce the joy, to make one functional, but no more no less, to lose the feeling of being, to take away the spirit.

Without the approval of Doctor or friend I leave that world behind, it is time to discover who and what I am, to not use a crutch or an excuse, to decide where life is going and what I will make of it. To learn who I have become, and what I am.


When I say I think of you, what do you feel?
When I say I Love you, what do you know?
When I say I dream of you, what do you want these dreams to be of?


I sat in silence in total disbelief
I watched my baby, grown to a man
tears slipping past his eyes
the lesson well learned
an error in judgment, that will forever haunt
no forgiveness


Sweet is war to those who know it not.
- Pindar -