VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
July 24

"Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them; but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight."
- Helen Keller -


I have totally wasted my night. It seemed as though nothing was to go correctly, the dog barfed, the menu wouldn't work in IE7, which now has me doubting the new layout, after having spent the past weeks converting, now I'm still doubting the choice to do this. Oh well I'm on vacation next week and the munchkins will be here so maybe I should just take a break for awhile.


"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead."
- Louisa May Alcott -


for every action there is a reason and an affect, a predestined opportunity given with the option of following that course or stepping onto the one unplanned. Now that I am preparing to move once again, I find myself wondering if this time will I be able to leave the pictures boxed. Will I be able to not look into the eyes there and the truth I saw, the truth I know and the truth that has been suppressed. Will I be able to say good-bye without ever saying them aloud. My thought to ponder today


Sometimes I'm happy that I'm here
Sometimes I wished I weren't
But every time I'm thankful for just being me


I thought about the Sunshine in the east and recalled how much I enjoyed it's warmth when it wrapped it's arms around me, I am trying to figure out what the silence means, and in my heart I know, but yet I have not accepted, for there must be some sort of vocal indication that all is over and it has come to pass.


where is the answer to the questions of life, the question of peace, the question of inner self, the question to life without sorrow, or burdens, where is the the answer to me?


When life gets straight why do I feel so bent


Sometimes I feel as though I'm so dumb, stupid, ignorant, I feel as though I'm so beneath everyone else. and I wonder if it is just the circumstances of my surroundings causing that and how does one break away from their born into situations. I know it is done, but by few, and at what cost. No matter what the thoughts are, how does one get beyond where they are, How do you achieve your goals, and make a place for oneself within this world? I really wonder what I have done incorrectly that I can not get beyond this prison of life unto which I was born.


Take an adventure into the realm of your imagination
close your eyes and focus on making your mind totally blank
you should only see black
no smells fill the air
no thoughts cloud your mind.
Is it possible do you think?

Now picture the sun, bright orange glow in the western sky streaks of purple clouds, and daylight slowly fading as your mind travels through this imaginary vision. You watch the sun slowly disappear, replaced by a million unknown stars sprinkling the sky. You feel the heat of the day slowly slip into the coolness of night. The trees rustle gently upon the breeze. Smell the scents of wild flowers gently drift by. Hear the night creatures as they call to their mates. Water softly lapping against root knurled banks.

This is the place that I go when I seek silence and solitude. A certain kind of peace settles over my soul as I dream of all the beauty God grants us in the night. Nothing to mar the beauty when lost in my mind.


God help those who do not help themselves.
- Wilson Mizner -