VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
July 26

Dutch Bear
"The point is not to pay back kindness but to pass it on."
- Julia Alvarez -


sometimes I wonder what I already know, what does it feel like to touch someone, to feel their heat, their warmth, to feel the texture of their skin against my own. Sometimes I wonder what it is like to hear a voice in the deepest of night, a true voice not from some tv or radio but one that leaves a whisper of breath against your cheek as it is spoken. Sometimes I wonder about what I have already known and haven't known forever.


"When you cannot make up your mind between two evenly balanced courses of action, choose the bolder."
- William Joseph Slim -


things are moving quickly now, it appears that a house has been found, the distance to work will be further, but the permanency of a true home is close at hand, maybe another month 6 weeks 2 not sure but closer now than then.


I wished that there was someone to turn to, to talk to to listen to, to be near, in my isolation


does it mean good-bye
I never lied
and I tried
and I cried
I haven't heard good-bye


For you I shall try
For you I shall cry
For you I shall sigh
For you I shall fly
For you I shall die


someday the rose will bloom


One day
the sunshine will stay
looking for the question
to find the answer
Looking into the system
they say they care
they want to help
but without the dollar
they really could care less

Believing there is no help
a sinking feeling
hopeless and lost
with no where to turn
living but dead
here but gone


frail fingers, bent and veined
turn the yellowed pages of a family bible
sightless eyes look at pages long forgotten
memories abound of days gone by
trembling lips whisper the words written silently
a peace settles over the soul
the tired body finally has found it's rest


Having the fewest wants, I am nearest to the gods.
- Socrates -