VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
July 30

"We have to fight them daily, like fleas, those many small worries about the morrow, for they sap our energies."
– Etty Hillesum -


Well I think I messed it up, I had to reformat the machine, which I guess is a good thing because I had never done it to this machine, and I've had it for a few years now. Isn't it funny how the years sneak in there, it used to be months ,and before that it was weeks, but now I look back and see it has been years, not one but more, the same with many things in my life, it has been years since I have felt, since I have truly lived. I need to change that. But figuring out how seems to be the biggest test that I fail continually.

My thought to Ponder.


"Happy is he who dares courageously to defend what he loves."
- Ovid -


how are you today? did you think of me as I thought of you this day? did you look for the moon and the stars? did you dream of days of old? did you sleep well, did you wake rested and at peace with yourself? do you ever cry in silence? do you ever think of when or then instead of now and how? do you wonder where life will lead or do you look back at the path your feet have made? do you ever?


a silent respect of the final day
may peace be found with in the turbulence


does the sun still shine
Like it did when your heart was blended with mine
does the moon still glow
Like it did before you had to go?


cherish me, if only with your thoughts, remember me for who I am and what I have done, not for what I can give or take. Recall my face and the tenderness within my soul. Know me for who I am and not what you would like me to be


tomorrow I will walk in a new direction
tomorrow I will think of only the morrow
tomorrow I will leave the tears behind
tomorrow I will no longer fight the fear
when tomorrow comes


In Retrospect

This day was better
the sleep less
the pain reduced
in more ways than one
A day for me


Blackest Night
Call to me
no stars to shine
lost in the dark
Darkest Night
Call to me
no moonlight to guide my steps
Deepest Night
Call to me
give them no light
hide me from their sight


You can't build a reputation on what you are going to do.
- Henry Ford -