2006
Sometimes when this feeling of aloneness comes over me I question myself and the ways I can change that, sadly I have found that I have become more reclusive than I ever was, and there is no way out of that I fear. I truly don't believe this is how life is supposed to be, but yet I feel helpless to change it. I just don't have it in me to go out into this world and try to find new friendships.
2005
"Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do.
Where there's love and inspiration, I don't think you can go
wrong."
- Ella Fitzgerald, 1917-1996, Jazz Singer -
2004
A bell is no bell 'til you ring it,
A song is no song 'til you sing it,
And love in your heart
Wasn’t put there to stay -
Love isn’t love
'Til you give it away.
- Oscar Hammerstein, Sound of Music, "You Are Sixteen
(Reprise)" -
2003
I spent the day working on the Vistas, finally doing something for me this weekend, although I know I should have been doing different things, sometimes a person just has to stop and say it's my time. If you don't you will soon find you never have any time for yourself, and in the process you begin to lose who you are.
2002
if one lives alone long enough they become the pariah that society scorns. and the longer the isolation the deeper the thorns
2001
In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.
- Coco Chanel -
2000
forgiveness must come before life can go beyond the grief and the pain of the past
1999
We all have our inner demons, we try to hide from them at times, we battle and curse them, but they still remain, building a barrier around us, a form of protection maybe? possibly? or an unconscious thought of not letting go of the past and fearing the future will hold more
1998
I knew you would go
all have before you
I knew I could never be loved
no one can love me
I knew it would end
it always does
I knew you would hurt me
but I was helpless to stop
I knew all this and yet
I gave you my heart
1997
We have seen better days.
- William Shakespeare -