VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
August 25

"He who saves one life, it is as if he has saved the entire world"
- the Talmud -

"The best antidote I have found is to yearn for something. As long as you yearn, you can't congeal: There is a forward motion to yearning."
- Gail Godwin -


Somthing is bothering me, but I truly don't know what it is. I think maybe it has to do with no challenge at work, and nothing exciting to look forward to when I am not at work. I couldn't wait for this work week to be over, and now I sit here and dread the long lonely weekend that I will spend. It's sad when the highlight of a weekend, is to take the dog to McDonalds, heck don't even have any other place to take myself or the dog. Oh well so goes life.


find me in here
i'm lost dear
find me in this place i am
i'm lost damn
find me if you can
i'm shifting in the sand
find me in here
i'm lost within fear
find me


The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them.
- Stephen King -


why do you walk my thoughts, what is it you are searching for? the message behind the words or the thoughts and feelings within my mind? Do they reflect yours? are you empty and dead inside as I feel I am? What are your thoughts? what emotions do you feel, or do not feel, do you know the deep sadness that I feel at times? Do you know the great joy, the happiness that only you can find? Do you see the blessings God gives you each and every day, the little ones that are often over looked? Do you feel as I do? do you want to know less or more? Why do you walk my thoughts?


no thoughts, for maybe there is no longer anything to think of. Life is a mechanical motion of existence


to Love someone is easy
To care for someone is easy
To find someone to give your soul to
now that is the hardest thing ever


The problem with any unwritten law is that you don't know where to go to erase it.
- Glaser and Way -


If I close my eyes
I see you there
I feel your closeness
feel your heart beat within
I know the warmth
the return of the feelings shared
I close my eyes
and live in the dream
of make believe
fairy tales


I want to shut the memories off
I want to hide them away again
I want to scream and cry
I want to die
I want to speak of the crime
I don't dare for the judgments to come
I want to be normal like everyone else
I want the scars to be gone
and happiness take it's place
I want to be loved like all the rest
I want to stand inside the circle
not on the outer rim
I want so much.
I want it so bad
but I fear none will ever be had


Even his griefs are a joy long after to one that remembers all that he wrought and endured.
- Homer -