VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
August 26

Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
- Karl Barth -


Little Fairy Laying on Her Stomach
Mouse Drawn by
B. J. Carper
from tutorials at
MadGurl's Tutorials


"Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience."
- Victoria Holt -

2005

okay I knew in the beginning that it was only a diversion in time for you and her, but for some reason I didn't think you would turn your back and leave without being man enough to tell me face to face, I guess more than anything I'm disappointed that you took the cowards way out of it all. I guess I was wrong about what I thought was the truth in your eyes, or maybe that is why you still can face me and say good-bye. What is it?

2004

Sometimes on nights like this when I cannot sleep, and when I lay in the bed and fight the memories and the longing I still feel so deep inside of me for what I once held loosely in the palm of my hand, I ask myself why didn't I hang on tighter, why didn't I fight harder, why didn't he understand how true my love really was. Did I believe, the answer was yes, do I believe the answer is yes, will I always believe, yes I believe I will.

2003

today the sun rises
and thoughts run about, to only surmise
the feelings of the yesterday
without the tears, fears, or medley

the noon hour comes
passes without motion, or change
the evening falls upon the soaked ground
and life goes on without a thing to arrange

2002

sneak in and out of my thoughts as though I don't know. Leave the silence build until the wall is so high there is no opening to breach it omit, delete, forget

2001

Walk alone in your dreams
Alone where no one can steal
Alone where no one can rob
Alone where no one can touch

Walk alone in your desires
Alone where there is no complaint
Alone where there is no guilt
Alone where there is no one

2000

they say grandpas can tell us much
they say grandpas are to be treasured for who they are
today is grandpa's birthday
a man I do not know and don't care to know

1999

In the realm of reality, we often miss the little things in life that seem covered by the constant motion of everything in our lives. Sometimes we just need to stop and take a look around us, to realize that what we are doing is not as important as what we are missing.

1998

Sweet surrender
into nothingness
the soul takes flight
then falls
for nothing is there to hold on to
a lost paradise
gone in an instant

1997

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.
- Isaac Asimov -