VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
September 6

"Mystery creates wonder and wonder is the basis of man's desire to understand."
- Neil Armstrong -

"All that is necessary to break the spell of inertia and frustration is this: Act as if it were impossible to fail."
- Dorothea Brande -


Finally the head has stopped pounding, gads I didn't think it ever would. I went tot he dentist today and did stage two of the root canal, now all I have to do is the close and the impression for the crown and that tooth will be done with. Hopefully it won't hurt as bad as it did today. Not sure what has been gong on with that tooth but my other root canals never hurt as bad as this one has. Oh well maybe it's Gods way of telling me I'm still alive.


"If you want a place in the sun, you've got to put up with a few blisters."
– Abigail Van Buren -


thinking, wondering, needing an answer, that never comes and never will, but yet day after day the thoughts are there, they never leave. I believed I wonder why he couldn't


The bug still fills my heart, no longer boo boo, no more sunshine, when the move comes the pictures will finally be put away, as though that will take the memories so sweet from my heart, the face is always there, the thoughts constant, somehow there has to be movement forward, but like all else that has left my life no formal good bye just disappearance.


a day of wasted moments, my heart stopped as a e-mail came in, my thoughts mixed and confused, how should I feel and how can I not.


I wonder why on your birthday at least you don't remember me. Wasn't I good mom to you? Didn't I go against your dad so that you could have things, and wasn't I always there for you. Today is your birthday but yet you don't remember me.


Today? what does it mean? where will it go, as we begin to understand as we begin to start something that may never end, how do we know what this day will bring in the end. As we walked along the shoreline, as we spent time in each other's arms, is it the beginning of something or is it just another passing thrill?

Happy Birthday Randyjoe, maybe some day you will come see me and know that I Love as any real mother could.


A walk upon the essence of thought
travels a world that cannot be bought
Only through diligent may it be sought
rarely do we have the insight not to become caught


Memories a double edge sword
they linger forever
recalling the good and the bad
and remind us of all that we had.


The slightest sorrow for sin is sufficient if it produce amendment, and the greatest insufficient if it do not.
- C. C. Colton -