VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
September 9

"Could we change our attitude, we should not only see life differently, but life itself would come to be different."
– Katherine Mansfield -

"A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval."
- Mark Twain -


Work went pretty good today, the store was busy so I stayed busy which was good, because I have felt like crap all day long. Watched the race tonight, Kevin Harvick won, and Tony Stewert didn't make the chase, but not a real exciting race. The Colts play their first game tomorrow, I'm looking forward to that, I guess. It's kind of sad when all one has to look forward to is sitting and watching a game all alone on a Sunday night, but so goes life.


If I could be reckless like I was in my youth, I believe life would be much happier, at least a bit more exciting. Unfortunately I cannot be, I must be responsible because I have no one to go behind me and pick me up if and when I should fall. If only I could find a way to let go of the security of safety and go for what I really want, but I can't.


I seem so frustrated
so dead and discontent with life as it is
I seem to have no motivation
so empty and isolated
I seem to want the pain and the hurt
so much in me won't let go
I seem to fight and fight
but never win


To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing and be nothing.
- Elbert Hubbard -


Sometimes the wind blows and it whispers in the night
Sometimes the sun is hot and heats with it's loving light
Sometimes the storms roll through putting up a good fight
Sometimes the rainbows follow it's rapid flight
Sometimes the elements show us what might

Sometimes the words tell of blight
Sometimes they are my only plight
Sometimes they may seem to be slight
and other times they hide what is hidden from sight.


Assert your right to make a few mistakes. If people can't accept your imperfections, that's their fault.
- Dr. David M. Burns -


The best helping hand that you will ever receive is the one at the end of your own arm.
- Fred Dehner -


the sadness shows
in the actions and the words
the loneliness steps out
away from the crowd
hiding the truth
the torment
the silent plea
withdrawn from being
hidden inside
inner turmoil
fights an endless battle


I'm tired Somehow I have allowed things to pass me by, I seem not to have an existence beyond the walls. I've forgotten the simple joys in life. The hours of reading a good book, sitting on the floor watching an old movie. The quiet times of just being held. I've let it all pass me by.

I wonder where life got so complicated, and how I allowed it to happen. I never wanted riches nor fame. I never sought power nor control. I used to be happy just being me. Where have I gone? I feel lost and torn. What will I have to sacrifice to find myself and the happiness I know exists.


The more opinions you have, the less you see.
- Wim Wenders -