VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
September 16

"People usually fail when they are on the verge of success. So give as much care to the end as to the beginning."
- Lao-Tzu -

"There isn't any virtue where there has never been any temptation."
- Margaret Deland -


Today has gone by with a better feeling in the bod. I didn't do anything, that required much movement but have spent most of the day here working on getting the Volume Vista converted. I have one midi file there that I'm not real sure is the song it's supposed to be. Hopefully it is correct, I wished I weren't so tone deaf. I'm sure if it is wrong someone will let me know.


"Do not be too timid and squeamish. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make, the better."
– Ralph Waldo Emerson -


I've got so much to do
6 days until they keys are in my hand
I wonder if this time when I pack if I'll be able to
put away
the picture
the rose
bert & squirt
the memory


as i sink into the depths of silence, discontentment and exhaustion i find that sleep comes easy, and maybe is the easiest thing that i have done in so many days, however never like life to be easy so thus the deprivation shall come again and soon i shall feel alive


it seems the faster I go the further I seem to get buried. one of these days I think I will collapse from the load.


My thoughts have been so full of what has happened to our country on Tuesday of this previous week, when cowards, took control of 4 American airplanes and crashed them into the World Trade Center in New York, The Pentagon in Washington D.C. and into a field in the state of Pennsylvania, As the list of those missing and possibly dead rises, my heart aches. It also fills my spirit with fear of what tomorrow will bring. not so much for myself but for my children, for my fellow man, and for our Nation.

I pray that the retaliation of this event does not cause the death toll to grow higher, I pray that Americans and those in other countries will ban together in one solidified union to bring this travesty in our lives to an end once and for all. I hear so many say let's go kick their butts, but at what cost, I don't think some are thinking of that. I also believe for every one of the suspected terrorists, there are many more that we do not even know of.

I fear for those in our country that are of Arab descent, Only because of their skin tone, I pray that no one persecutes the innocent for their race or ethnic backgrounds. We must remember it was not a race of people who did this, it was not a country that did this, it was not a religion that did this, but it was done buy a group of extremist who have a distorted view of their power and beliefs.

I believe that the coming months not only will be a test of our strength, but also of our character as a human being on this earth. today in the news I heard of looting, I heard of attacks against Islamic Religious groups, I heard of Americans born here in the United States being fearful for their lives because of their Ethnic backgrounds, to those individuals perpetrating these actions I must say that you are doing as the terrorist want, they gain power by causing dissention among the ranks.

I know many people who believe in their personal causes, and their convictions are strong, but I ask that those who feel we should just go bomb somewhere because of the suspected harboring of these terrorist to be patient in their thoughts and feelings. Patience is something we as Americans are not good at, it is something myself that I am constantly reminding myself of, and I often say I ma taking lessons in patience.

The best way to find solace in such a tragic event is to learn our strengths and our wisdom. We must learn how to stand together, how to cope, and for so many how to learn to think of others and not only of ourselves. We must take all the negative and turn it into something positive. I think of the almost daily terrorist attacks other countries have endured, and how those under attack have survived and continued to grow. We must follow their examples to some extent and learn by their experiences

Please remember these are my thoughts and do not reflect any other individual but myself.


People are so busy lengthening their lives with exercise they don't have time to live them.
- Jonathan Miller -


the days are becoming shorter
the nights cooler
as summer slips away and fall takes its place
the leaves fade as does time
and soon they will fall
I can almost smell cotton candy in the air
for it's time for the fall fair


Destiny where will you lead me
will the trail always be made of cobblestone
May it be someday lined with silver and gold?

Destiny what is your plan
what path shall I follow to make it home
May it be someday soon?


I think the next best thing to solving a problem is finding some humor in it.
- Frank A. Clark -