VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
September 19

"We grow old as soon as we cease to love and trust."
- Madame de Choiseul -


The week grows more interesting. Had to go pick mom up at the blue moon because her other half was handcuffed and on his way to the drunk tank. Lord my kids didn't give me gray hair but my parents sure are. Since he was so high on the breathalizer they had to take him to the hospital to check him out so he could stay at the jail, while there he ran into my father who was there because my grandma had fallen and broken her leg. What a night.


one hand placed in the other
one touch passed speaking without words
one moment in time


"Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?"
- John 11:25 -


sleep is being evasive once again. Nearing 2 am, and knowing that the morning comes way to soon, and the day ahead will be hard, I wonder why sleep doesn't come, when the mind and the body are so tired, but yet thoughts keep the body tense, and there is nothing one can do about it.


the darkness complete
the silence absolute
the solitude complex
the peace unwanted




if I were sad
would you be glad?
if love were to be had
would you say it's bad?


With sad resignation I resign myself from the one thing that occupies my time, and move forward to a new chapter in my life. What it holds and how it ends has yet to be written, but the journey shall certainly be memorable.


If the line is crossed will you be sorry
will it cause tears to fall
Protect my heart for it is fragile

I so want to give you all
but I know if I shall I will fall
and in the end what will remain

If I give to you my heart to keep
will you treasure it through the fall?
Guide my spirit for it is confused

I so wish to have your love
but I know you can not force a heart to fall
and in the end leave it alone

If only the years could have been different
If I had not stumbled or caught myself in the fall
Treasure my heart for it is hardest of all


If everything seems under control, you're just not going fast enough.
- Mario Andretti -