VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
September 26

"Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up."
- Anne Lamott -

"Luck? I don't know anything about luck. I've never banked on it and I'm afraid of people who do. Luck to me is something else: hard work - and realizing what is opportunity and what isn't."
- Lucille Ball -


I had thought about going to the fair tonight but decided not to, it just wouldn't be any fun to walk around alone. besides it brings back one of the greatest memories I have of a day spent there, winning a little white teddy and a trip to the river bank after wards, the tree leaves almost sparkling in the sunlight overhead, as I opened my eyes for a brief moment and expereinced heaven.


"We each need to let our intuition guide us, and then be willing to follow that guidance directly and fearlessly."
– Shakti Gawain -


it's funny with smoking outside I find I want to spend more time away from my puter, I'm wanting to read again, smell the fresh air and listen to the birds sing, maybe finally I can find some peace and contentment inside of me, a place of belonging, even if it is only within myself for myself by myself.


reading last years thoughts for this day...I wonder why when I moved here that the only thing that should of never been even brought still sets on my desk..a reminder of a day when I believed that he loved me, that he would always be a part of my life...why can I not put your picture away, or erase you from my thoughts.


on September 5 you said
i love in my own way, its just
the way i am, and i'll get out of here right now, will
try to catch you tomorrow. ...the Bug

but I guess tomorrow never came, and I ask myself why? I deserve an honest answer but like everything else in my Life the silence speaks louder than words, but yet am I not good enough to deserve a good bye? Don't I deserve the respect of that and again I answer that one for myself, no one has ever had the decency to tell me the truth in words but only in silence.


Cats seem to go on the principle that it never does any harm to ask for what you want.
- Joseph Wood Krutch -


teddy W came into my life today


When the morrow comes, will you look for me? Will you seek my presence, or will you hold the memory?


Do you Love me as you say you do?
Are you confusing Love with lust?
What does Love mean to you?
How does it make you feel?

Do you want to Love me?
to where only your eyes see me and no one else?
Where is your heart?
Who does it really belong too?

You or me?


There are no shortcuts in evolution.
- Louis D. Brandeis -