VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
October 28

We cannot hold a torch to light another person's path without brightening our own.
- Ben Sweetland -

"There can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do."
- Freya Stark -


I wonder why when the leaves turn, and fall I think of you and a dance in the moonlight.


I want to take my mind to a place that is not so real, one where I can feel again, a place where I know what emotions are, not from memory but from the here and now. I want to take my mind into that fantasy and believe that I am like others in this world who know the pain of loss, and the joy of love once again, but somehow I can't seem to take myself to that place no matter how hard I try.


When you cannot make up your mind between two evenly balanced courses of action, choose the bolder.
- W.J. Slim -


the headache is back, it has been some times since it has plagued me like this. I wish my thoughts were clearer...sometimes and as the days go by I feel as though my mind will wear out way before my body.


I ponder the thought of believing, and why I still do even when it is done and over, and why I can not move forward from the once was to the now is.


The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes of mind.
- William James -


today when the sun shines, the cold air wakes, the mist falls, and the raven calls
today when the moon rises, the stars twinkle, the night ages, and my soul rages
today when the pain stops, the tears lost, the ache eases, and life ceases


Aye, but is?

Aye, who's it?



I cried
Will Love find me
My mind is empty
no thoughts of anyone
my only desire
is to fill my thoughts of that someone
the unknown one
the one who holds me in my dreams

I cried
Will Love find me
my soul is empty
a blackness fills myself
no one to run to
none to comfort
only my dreams

I cried
Will Love find me
My spirit dead
locked inside a prison of aloneness
self built
or imaginary
my dreams only a vision no truth

I cried
Will Love find me
my heart longs
for tenderness, an understanding of myself
not a toy
or someone to satisfy the lust of others
it beats
I crave

Will Love ever find me


Our feelings are our most genuine paths to knowledge.
- Audre Lorde -