VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
November 3

If GOD brings you to it,

He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise GOD.

Difficult moments, seek GOD.

Quiet moments, worship GOD.

Painful moments, trust GOD.

Every moment, thank GOD.


"I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within. It is there all the time."
- Anna Freud -


"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we are not really living. Growth demands a temporary surrender of security."
– Gail Sheehy -


"Humans are divided into two parts: body and spirit. The body is like a house, but the spirit is like an automobile--always on the move."
- Flannery O’Connor -


I miss the bug so bad today, I wonder why after all this time, I still can not shake the memories, or heal this hole in my heart, from that piece of me he took. I find I'm not open to anything new, I have tried to see others, but never taking it to more than a meal. I wonder does the bug ever think of me, maybe, but I'm certain not as often or constant.

Since the move, he doesn't even know where to find me. has no way of contacting me, and there is no way to know that these thoughts still stay here in my heart, his picture still sits on my desk, and somewhere in my mind I know that there will never be a love purer than that, that we shared.

I know they have asked me, why I don't move forward, why I don't forget, why I keep myself isolated and alone, when I don't have to, and I know they would never understand what I feel, why I feel, and that only one will ever fill this emptiness.

I looked around this house today, the bare walls, the empty shell of a box that is supposed to be my home, and thought with a smile if the bug were here he would fill it up with things, but for now fuzzy blue eyes sits and laughs at my whimsy and lets a tear slip from his eye as he looks across the room at Bert and Squirt and recognizes their significance in this place now called home


as though my thoughts were read before published, the silence of the words did halt anyhow for the day, and for some unexplainable reason, my heart feels so much happier, my whole being, needed just a hello, to feel not so alone.

and finally the car is happy cause she got new oil, and an air filter, I needs to take better care of her, I really do, I just wished I knew how to do these things myself.


Charm is a way of getting the answer yes without asking a clear question.
- Albert Camus -


Live so that your friends can defend you but never have to.
- Arnold H. Glasgow -


I question what makes one complete in the entirety of life. Is it the deeds done or the perception of the inner soul, that makes one as one and has left things undone?


hunger gnaws at the inside
a hunger like no other
the desire to know
the wanting to have
the needing to see

shall I ever be fed
will I be full
will there be satisfaction
in a life so dull


When you can think of yesterday without regret and tomorrow without fear, you are near contentment.
- Unknown -