VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
November 19

A gift was given to me,
Across the distant miles;
A package wrapped in laughter,
And filled with joy and smiles.

I pulled away the ribbons,
And took the greatest care;
When I reached into the gift,
I found friendship waiting there.

A friendship like no other,
A connection from the start;
Not one I could see, touch or feel,
Except here in my heart.

That gift so rare and precious,
Of friendship tried and true;
Touched my heart and blessed my life,
And is what I found in you.

- © Allison Chambers Coxsey -


The headache is back, gads I wished they wouldn't sneak up on me like this, anymore they are almost crippling. The pounding just will not quit.


Some days are made for reflecting and those days seem to be more numbered with each day that goes by in life. We find what we are both thankful and sorrowful at every turn of the bend


"I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains."
- Anne Frank -


I thought of him today, I don't know why but I did, I thought about those blue eyes and that wrinkle of the nose at the mention of sour cream and bbq chips. I wonder why after all this time I do that, and why I always feel so sad when I do, so empty and alone.


I wonder why I find it so hard to add my thoughts as of late, why I don't speak my heart and say all that I feel inside, has life taught me and others to remain silent for if the words the feelings were out in the open spoken freely and without recourse or regret we can somehow protect ourselves and keep our dreams intact to hold on to for as long as we like?


to carry the burden of never being what one wants, never being what is needed and never being wanted is something that is so hard to do


Once I had a life, a family and a home, now I have nothing but my thoughts


A reflection in the mirror
an unknown stranger peers
seeking the answers from the face
wondering about life's pace
Questioning the day
rather to go or stay
The reflection does not know
but it should though
Don't you think?


21 Nov 98--in retrospect

A free day to explore all the marvels of LA and the rich and famous, we toured past the stars homes not knowing whose was whose or not even caring, just the richness and the splendor was enough for country folks like me. We traveled famous streets and saw famous stores, a wonderment of awe stole over me. We proceeded up the mountain and looked over the valley, such a fantastic site to behold. New faces were added to old friends and new friends were added as well as we sipped wine and feasted on divine food. Then as we departed the valley was a glitter of lights below off to the hotel for our last night in town, the body was tired but the mind so full of all it had seen and witnessed in the past 72 hours.

Sleep finally came


When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
- Kahlil Gibran -