VISTAS: An awareness of a range of time, events, or subjects. A broad Mental View.
August 5

Vanilla with hands behind her back

Mouse Drawn by
B. J. Carper
by following tutorials at
Vanilla Fields

Vanilla with hands out to side


I wasted the day, but yet nothing is new there. Crystal and the kids visited in the morning, Mat and the girl were here for a spell, I took Nelson to McDonald's, I wasn't feeling well so I took a pill and I slept. Isn't that how your supposed to spend a Saturday?


"Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for your brothers, love one another deeply, from the heart."
- 1 Peter 1:22 -


today was one of waiting, however I asked God once to teach me patience and this he truly did by allowing me to wait and wait and wait for all the things my heart so desires, or the things my my mind things I need the most. Only time will tell if the lesson has been well learned


It seems as of late I can not seem to find my feet, as though I'm floating and have no direction or purpose, no focus and no desires.


if I could have a sign that would tell me to go onward but yet in my heart I know that I cannot as long as I know that the sunshine still comes from the East, and the thought of the warmth the sun has brought to my life through the past. I miss the sunshine in my days, but yet deep inside I know he is with me and always will be.


Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.
- James A. Baldwin -


I wonder if my judgment on things is so confused that maybe I shouldn't ever try to think, just act or react to my circumstances. Sometimes thinking too much is as big a curse as not thinking at all.


The silence comes again
the isolation and the fear
I look for a place to hide
A place to be safe from within

Seeking the laughter
a small and musical sound
that somehow is unattainable
not found


They give what they can
all for a Thanks and a hello
They give their time
until no time exists
in the end all they have
is a Thanks
a Good-bye


Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting.
- Alan Dean Foster -